02.19.2018
pain, pain
i wish for my heart to shed a part of itself so that i may not feel as much pain as i feel now. i wish for half my mind to cease asking so i do not see as many things to fear about as i see now. which parts of the present circumstances should matter to me? <content redacted> i am desperate to kill every evil thought that should not be occupying me; but how do i know which ones i have to face and which i should not even have to bother about?